Alternative title: How I Create My Own Problems
When I contrast yesterday with today, it is crystal clear how I create my own problems by not following my intuition. Yesterday, I ignored it, and the day was painful. Today, I listened, and experienced a miracle.
Yesterday, I went grocery shopping. Simple enough, but the complicating factor was that I had lost my debit card a little while ago. I got my new card on Christmas Eve, but they assigned a new PIN and I didn’t have that yet. As I prepared to go shopping, my thought was, “Oh, I have my card so I can finally go grocery shopping.” I forgot about the fact that I didn’t have my pin.
As I was leaving the house, I had the thought, “I should stop by the Post Office before going shopping.” (Long story about how there is no home delivery of mail where I live.) But I ignored that still, small voice.
There were two grocery stores I could have gone to. I chose to go to the less expensive one. What I ‘forgot,” is that the cheaper store only accepts debit card (with PIN), or cash, or check. So, I racked up almost $100 in groceries, including lots of frozen food, and when I tried to use my card it didn’t work. The internal rage was… uncomfortable, to say the least.
If I had decided to go to the other store, I could have run as credit. If I had stopped by the post office, I would have gotten the letter containing my new PIN. But, I did neither. I raged, with my son beside me. I called my husband and arranged to go by his work and get his card. All the while, so angry, and my son thinks I am angry with him and he didn’t do anything and he is getting more and more upset. I’m too angry to be sensitive to what he is experiencing and get madder. It was a mess.
I got my husband’s card, paid for my groceries, apologized to my son, dropped him off at a friend’s house, and went home. I could feel my blood pressure up and the bile in my stomach rising. The physical effects of stress are quite palpable to me and felt immediately.
So, jump to today. I’m giving my son a ride to a different friend’s house. We actually pass the street, and it took a bit to turn around and pull up the address. When we get to the apartment complex, we turn in to the wrong driveway. However, there is a woman sitting at the end of the drive smoking a cigarette. I swear it looks like a friend I had been worried about for several month who pretty much disappeared. She was bundled up, and I was still a short distance away, but I ‘knew’ it was her. But I would have felt stupid driving all the way up for it to not be her, so I pulled out of the driveway.
We found the right driveway, my son got out, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that WAS my long-lost friend. I decided to risk looking stupid and went back to the other driveway. I pulled all the way up, looked, and it was in fact my friend.
I was overjoyed to see that she was alive and safe. When a lot of your friend are recovering addicts and alcoholics, it is not uncommon for people to relapse and die. We hugged and talked and talked and hugged. I felt such joy knowing that she was OK. She had gotten really sick again, but was doing well and had not relapsed.
Driving home, I reveled in what a miraculous reunion that was. If we had left 10 minutes earlier or later…. If we had driven straight to the right street and not arrived several minutes later… If we had pulled into the correct driveway the first time. Millions of ways for us not to have been reunited, not to mention if I had ignored my intuition with the rational thought, “That’s too much of a coincidence. It can’t be her.”
So many times I ignore my intuition. All the times I’m inspired to write but am too lazy, have ‘important’ things to do, say I’ll do it later but never quite get around to it.
Today, being New Year’s Day, I can make a decision to pay more attention to my intuition. I can re-dedicate myself to finding that time to commune with Spirit so my intuition is stronger and clearer. With so much to be grateful for, I know that the closer I follow my Higher Power’s will via my intuition, the more joy I get to experience. I hope today is a day that you also follow your intuition for a blissful day.